This post is more of a personal admission to a self sabotaging pattern that I have noticed in my life (have any of those?) with hopes that by consciously recognizing a flaw in my programing I can make advances in reaching new ways and understanding. Here goes, whenever I say or think with passion and emotion "I would never....." Ironically I frequently find myself in those exact same situations at a later date. Parenting mistakes....check. Relationship mistakes...check. Financial mistakes... not intentionally but check and double check. Judging when I do not have enough information,,,, let's just say the older I get the more I learn to curb this very human tendency. Is it the law of attraction? A higher power leading me to humility? Who knows but I promise myself I am never going to use the words NEVER in a sentence again. (Winky face, irony intentional). I have learned that there is a plan for my life larger than I can imagine, with more to experience than I can even fathom. Did I ever think I would be the mother of twins? or 4 girls for that matter? No, but I absolutely love it. Did I ever believe I would live so far away from the conveniences of life and my instinctual need for trees and growing things? No, but I followed my dreams and moved where I felt prompted to go, and as a result, my life is blessed every day. My life continues to change in many ways from perspectives and views, choices, habits, careers, relationships the list goes on but the learning experiences don't end. I am thankful for my choices but also for the chances to experience the things I thought I would never have a part of. I am thankful for the experiences and views of others that are different than my own. I am thankful for the journey and most importantly for the hand that leads each of us along the way.
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
"For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee." Isaiah 41:13
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